So this is going to be like a journal entry blog post. You can skip it if you only like my humor. I have been doing a lot of thinking and processing over here in Haiku and I just want to get some thoughts out.
I am not sure when it happened, but somewhere along the way, I have let fear seep in to my life and have to much power over me. As my parents would tell you (while shaking their heads and rubbing their face), I was a pretty fearless little girl. I guess falling on my face too many times (both literally and figuratively right fam? :) has changed me. As you know, my most recent fear has been of moving alone and starting over. It has literally been making me sick. This trip to Maui has hanged all that. It has made me remember that I am strong and independent and the more I take risks, the more things I fall in love with. I have enjoyed this time alone so much and I have enjoyed the adventure of a new place. I have been here a week and I have already made friends, done tons of things I have never done before and survived finding my way in a foreign place. I have also been learning (or rather re-learning) to live in peace. To shut out all my anxiety and just be still in my heart and mind. It has been so good for me and I am so thankful God has provided me this opportunity! Thanks for listening. :)
Friday, June 22, 2012
Thursday, June 21, 2012
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
Presents from Josh
I told Josh that I love the beautiful flowers and plants in Maui, so now he brings me amazing baked goods and beautiful flowers. I should never leave Maui.
Aloha
Ready for the beach!
Following my little love maps from LBL to Kehei!
This is what Larry called Kam 1. I know that is not the real name but I don't know what it is.
It was beautiful! Then on the way home, I saw the most beautiful, vibrant rainbow. I really wish my camera was better because none of these pictures do justice. It was so pretty.
Monday, June 18, 2012
Life in Maui Thus Far
I will tell you the truth. I have stayed in the house a lot. I am on page 1110 of the Count of Monte Cristo and I so want to finish it! I have done some reading here though.
This is A.H. Baldwin Park and I have done some reading at Hookipa beach while watching the surfers.
On Saturday, Larry gave me 6 pages of instructions and maps and I followed them to the T. I went to Hookipa, watched the surfers and read, then he told me to got to Paia (a cute little town) and wandered the shops. I picked me up a couple things like this fun dress and hat.
Do I look ready for the beach? :) And then I had a crepe at Cafe Des Amis. It was baked brie, apple, avocado and black pepper (YUM!) with a lilikoi margarita (double yum!). Then I headed back to the pad cause my roommate missed me. Say hello to my roommate.
There are geckos all over the house but this one chirps the loudest and follows me around the house. :) I think that's enough for now. I will keep you updated.
Coffee?
This morning, my boss started the faxing at 4:45AM. The fax machine is in my room and it rings like the world's loudest telephone before it recieves the fax. So I log in and get started on work a little after 5AM. So at about 6, I could really use some coffee. So I put down the laptop and head to the kitchen where there is a sweet little gecko waiting for me on my coffee pot. I think to myslef, he must be having a rough morning too. Then I notice just to the right of my coffee pot, there is a cockroach lying on it's back and I think to myself, he REALLY had a rough morning. So I go to brush what I thought was a dead cockroach off my counter and he happens to be alive. So I killed him. Now we have all had a really rough morning, but I got my coffee.
Let's Say I Posted This Friday, Shall We?
I am in Maui. It was a little rough getting here but I finally made it and let me tell you, it was worth the trouble!! This is a picture of the view from the house I am staying in.
There are three decks, all of which have those lounge chairs. I love the blue water, I love the vegation, I love the smell of the air, and of course I love the 87 degree weather I have had for the last two days. :) The plants and flowers are so different than I am used to at home. I can name most plants (thanks to my remarkable mother and our summers in the garden) at home but here I don't know any of them. They are so bright, colorful and beautiful!
There are three decks, all of which have those lounge chairs. I love the blue water, I love the vegation, I love the smell of the air, and of course I love the 87 degree weather I have had for the last two days. :) The plants and flowers are so different than I am used to at home. I can name most plants (thanks to my remarkable mother and our summers in the garden) at home but here I don't know any of them. They are so bright, colorful and beautiful!
Wednesday, June 13, 2012
Your body wants to heal.
It senses something is not right and tries desperately to repair what is
broken. However, if the bone is not
corrected, the healing will occur but the pain will never subside, it will be
prone to further injuries and when stress is applied it will break again. Many say that the resetting of a broken bone
is more painful than the break itself.
This is the analogy that has been occurring to me over and
over again in the last few weeks. I feel
like there is a resetting occurring and it is uncomfortable and even painful
but it is the only way for me to be healthy again.
There was a line (well 2 actually) in the movie “Why
Thursday, June 7, 2012
Closure
I realize that my blogs have become
few and far between. I am at one of
those stages where I feel a little less humor and a little more stress and honestly,
who wants to hear about my stress? I don’t. I would like to avoid it and I know you would
too, so let’s avoid together shall we?
I have a few issues to report bank
to you on:
1) The epic mouse hunt has concluded. The brave (and quite clever might I add)
Ralph, my motorcycle mouse, breathed his last early Tuesday morning. I believe he grew too confident with setting
off those mouse traps for fun and eventually, he got caught (literally). Bless his little heart. RIP
Ralph. You will be missed, your little
poops will not.
2) I went to visit Gonzaga, had a major meltdown, and
decided to return to repressing all feelings on the subject altogether. My dad on the other hand really enjoyed
it. Apparently, in his eyes, every
single man that has a Spokane
address is better than anyone I have found thus far.
Fascinating really.
3) I am still doing 2.5 jobs but as my dad always says, “I
am one bad day away from retirement.” I
think about walking out the door and never coming back every single day. J
4) I am going to Maui in 6
days and I think it is going to be amazing.
I think that it will be just what I need, seeing as at the moment I get raging pissed at a text message that I think is rude and then when I read it
again I realize it wasn’t. I think I
need to breath for a few days. J Actually, I need therapy, but Maui will have to do for now.
5) I have done a pretty darn good job of saving my pennies (literally,
you can ask my roommate). I have saved
about $5K and now I just need another $7K, in two months. No big deal right? Well this weekend I am selling almost
everything I own so hopefully that helps. Nobody can say I am not willing to give it all up for my
dreams.
Have I left you hangin’ on anything
else? These are all the things I can remember
right now. If there is further
unfinished business that you need to cross over, just let me know. (Di d you see what I did there, Little Sister? FTW)
Wednesday, June 6, 2012
Good Morning
Every morning I go in to my boss’s office and we chat. I never know what that conversation will
hold. Last week he told me that I look
just like Kobe Bryant. It was something
about us having the same mouth. Yesterday
he said his life philosophy required him to never see me or speak to me again
if I quit the firm. Often he will give
me his opinion on my outfit or what I chose to do with my evening. It can be the highlight or the thorn of my
day.
This morning, our conversation included some very
nice comments.
He told me that I am honestly 1 in 6 billion and that I have
a bigger picture (broader view) and better heart than any woman he has ever
met. He told me that because of those
qualities mixed with my brightness, he believes I really can change the world
with a J.D. I never really know if he
means anything he says to me but man that was what I needed to hear right now!
Then an hour later he walked behind me and yelled “Where’s
Katrina!!” That is my sister who quit 6 months ago and whose job I have been doing ever since. I should be careful taking to
heart the words of a crazy man. J
Monday, June 4, 2012
Love Notes from Dad
I could analyze this picture and it's implications and the social effects and stereotypes to death. However, I have a dad who loves me and knows my story and so I smile and post. :) I love you dad.
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