I realize I have gone from regular blogging to rare posts. It seems boring to say I am just so
busy, though it’s true. In all
honesty, there have been times I wanted to post but I just don’t know what to
say. Who wants to hear about my
classes and my internships or externships? You know when people have kids and they just can’t talk
about anything else? People
without children want to be encouraging and supportive but enough is enough. I have found myself in those situations
questioning, “do we just have nothing in common anymore?” And those sweet parents explain that
they are lost in a world of crying, teething, diapers, and first words. They don’t have a lot else to offer and
they don’t have time to stop and think about their inner thoughts or growth.
I think that’s a little similar to how I feel. I know that people don’t want to hear
about law school doctrines, case law, brief writing, or oral arguments. On one too many occasions I have seen
the eyes of friends and family glaze over as I try to share my life with
them. I don’t blame them. It doesn’t make sense and it’s
boring.
I have very little personal life to share and with my mental
capacity completely spent, I can’t even think of funny quips or thoughtful
comments to make the world think.
Life in law school has taken a toll on me. In fact, it’s taken all of me: my time and my mind. When I call it quits for the day, I
want to sleep or turn my brain off.
I honestly don’t know how I feel about most things most days. And I am too mentally and physically
exhausted to figure out how I do feel.
By no means do I want this post to come across as negative
or complaining. It is really just
trying to explain the changes.
Today I focus on successfully surviving each day. I love everything I am learning. I am proud of how far I have come. But it is a very challenging season of
my life. I just keep my eye on the
prize and aim to succeed. There are these beautiful moments when I see
progress, growth, or change. There
are even days when I feel proud of myself. But then I have to run to the next
challenge. So please be patient with me.
There will be a time when I laugh more and my witty sense of humor will
shine through again. There may
even be a day when I share my relationship of funny things my kids did that
day.
Only 7 more weeks until I am done with my second year of law
school! Hopefully I will have fun and exciting things to share this summer. J Stay tuned.
