In just under 3 weeks I will be moving in with a young girl named Desiree. Actually she is not all that young. She is older than I am (but of course doesn’t look a day over 23). That is beside the point. The point is that her life reminds me of mine about 5 years ago. I used to be a little “fireball” (as my Grandpa would say) of a person just running around doing everything for everyone while working multiple jobs and going to school. I think God gives a person a certain amount of energy to use up in one life and I used all mine up by 23, then I got chronic mono and I just get progressively more tired every year. Next year I will have the energy of an 80 year old. It is frustrating (to say the least). I have nothing left when I get home from work so I read or watch a movie. I am a huge loser. But if I don’t do this, I will crash. Anyway, I am just jealous of the energy I see her exerting. I get tired just watching her. But I get tired just thinking about the life I lived about 2 years ago.
That is not the whole point. The thing is, I am supposed to be preparing and applying for law school. I am supposed to be writing. There are so many dreams I have yet to accomplish but for the last 15 months I have done NOTHING besides work. Not that I don’t have the time because I have the same amount of hours in a day as I did when I worked full time and went to school full time. But the energy is all gone. I just get more tired all the time.
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