Who am I

I have been thinking a lot lately about how we as people relate to ourselves and define ourselves. More specifically, how we can look back at certain times of our lives and say things like "I am not who I was". Sometimes it is because we have changed and grown and become more of the person we want to be. Often times, it is because life's trials have broken us and have left deep scars. Even more often, it is a little of both. I have never wanted to be someone who had regrets or made mistakes. But to quote a great movie, "Well you're in the wrong species love. You should have been a dog."
On one hand I have fought to become who I am. On the other hand, I have let life break my heart, discourage me and harden me without a fight. It is in the midst of pain that I have changed the most, for better and for worse. i just don't want to look back and regret that I am not who I was. I can look back and wish I was skinny or wish I had no wrinkles and perky boobs but who I really am, I want that to be someone I am more proud of every day. I want to own my identity. I want to look back and say that I am so glad those things have changed and theat I am so glad God brought me through that or healed that. LEt that be true of me.