Last Lap

I feel like I am running the last lap of a 4 mile race but I didn't pace myself so I have no final burst of energy. I have nothing left. I just wanna throw up. I know I am so close but I feel like I just can't muster up the energy. I think my statistics class is going to ruin my GPA. I have no time between my work, school, my law school applications and trying to keep up on my health. Ugh. 2 more weeks. 2 more weeks. 2 more weeks. I think I can. I think I can. I think I can.

Absent

Sometimes I realize how much of life I am missing. Don't get me wrong, I am not unhappy with my life. There are times, however, that I think about times with friends and conversations with my family that I feel like I never really engaged. I listen but can't focus, I miss important facts, I forget a lot. I hate this. I don't like how little time I have and the time I do have I spend thinking about what I still need to get done or totally spacing out because I just can't concentrate anymore. I love that I am accomplishing my goal and fighting for what I know can make a difference in this society. I love that law and social justice make me feel alive. But I never wanted to be someone who sacrifices friends and family in the process. My friends are getting married to men I have met maybe once. Children are growing up so fast and I see them maybe once a year. It is difficult for to accept this as a part of life. And the saddest part is that I know it is only going to get more like this for who knows how long. Lord give me the strength to continue in this course and help me to be a good friend to those that have been there for me.

Personal Statement

Please sum you life story and important qualities up into a two page, double-spaced paper. For best results, make sure you tell me everything I want to hear. I would like to know that you are brilliant, driven, destined for success, embody the struggling social groups in America, and have a difficult economic background (but of course are stilling willing to pay $45,000 a year to achieve the success you are destined for). Make sure you make no mistakes, reveal no mistakes and know that if you make a mistake in the future... You are screwed. Now be open and honest and meet difficult deadlines so that I can throw your statement on the floor due to your mediocre LSAT score and GPA. Basically: I dare you to prove you are everything I already know you are not. : (

New Year

I am not one for New Year's resolutions. I don't care much for silly goals I don't intend on meeting or promises I can't keep. If it wasn't important enough on March 3rd or November 16th to do it...why do I think I am going to find sudden inspiration on January 1st? However, I am very excited for a new year. I have had some rough years (like the last 5). I have accomplished a lot, learned a lot, and I am grateful for a lot in those 5 years but it has been a rough road. This year I will get my B/A and I will find out where I get accepted into law school and I will begin law school in September. Everything about my life is going to change this year and that gives me hope. I am ready for the change! I am tired of my life as it has been. I do not know what the future holds but I kind of feel like I am getting to finally start the rest of my life. I am excited for what this coming year will hold. I am also a little nervous and scared but mostly excited. So cheers to 2010! I hope it is great for all of my friends and family as well.