Summer Update

Hello world!

I am very sorry to anyone who reads my blog in hopes of keeping up with my life.  I have been absolutely terrible at keeping everyone posted on the progress of my first year of law school so I will try to sum it up for you. 

I have completed my first year of law school!  Grades are in and I passed all my classes!  I was offered an awesome internship this summer with The Racial Disparity Project.  I am 8 weeks in to my 10 week internship and it has been extremely challenging.  While is has been an amazing learning experience and networking opportunity, it has been intense.  Many of the responsibilities and expectations have required me second year knowledge so I have been learning as much as I can as fast as I can but I have felt behind most of the time.  It is so worth it though! I am so impressed by the work that RDP is involved int.  It inspires and encourages me to keep going.

I am also taking a night class this summer.  It is Professional Responsibility and it is not too overwhelming, the professor is very engaging and he keeps me awake until 9:30, when the class ends.  The days are long and I am tired most days. 

I also started working at a coffee shop on the weekends so there is really no way to catch up on sleep then.  However, it is the one thing I feel good at!  I don’t have a huge learning curve and that is refreshing.

As for my personal life (lol.  You know, those OTHER three hours left in my week), I have been spending as much time as I can with my sweet man and his sweet daughter.  We have had some pool days and some park days and quite a few BBQs.  We hope to do some hiking and some camping as soon as school is out!  It has been great to spend time with them and soak up the beautiful weather we have been having!

I hope that this sufficiently updates you on the progress this crazy journey.  I will try to do better this year.  It has been so much harder than I could have ever imagined and survival is truly a major feat.  I will try to have as much fun as I can over the next month and get some pics up!  

Energy and Fire

Most days I feel tired.  I feel empty.  I feel like I have nothing left to give and I don’t know how I will make it through the day or attempt tomorrow.  Most days I feel like a failure.  I feel old and tired and worn.  Most days, I think I have pushed myself too hard for too long and I just don’t have what it takes anymore, if I ever did. 

And then there are these brief moments when someone else' thought slips through my ever focused and ever tired mind.  I get a glimpse of a dream.  The dream of a little girl with all the energy of youth and all the fire of life who doesn’t understand resistance.  She just wants one day to change the world.  She wants beauty and justice and truth. She doesn’t know the world will fight her every step of the way.  She doesn’t know life will be hard on her.  And that little girl chases the exhaustion and bitterness and negativity in my mind.  For a brief second I am overwhelmed by an emotion I can’t explain.  I know I am living the realization of that little girl's dream as I writ this Writ of Habeas Corpus or study the Constitution.  She doesn’t know what it is but she wants this.  And I want to give it to her.